The End

 Here you will find the end.

It's time for KaythiaStar to go. If you would allow me, let me tell you that she was fantastic. There were endless stories that were never told. Many never to be finished, at least not right now. Right now, there's only one story that needs to be told.

But Kaythia made a mistake. She gave a Texas man a very special gift. One that change his life for the better. In exchange, he would make certain things happen. Oppurtunites that Kaythia had no way of doing herself being in the situation she was in. Not to mention any time she had tried to fight her way out, there was someone waiting to knock the shit out of her and take whatever they wanted. She had given up trying to do it herself. She knew she needed a confidant, a partner. That's not unusual. How many times did she hear someone say, "You are not an island. You can't do it all one your own." 

So, Kaythia gave a list of steps and ideas and things to do. He did do those things, but that was one third of the plan. You see, there were two more acts to go! She only gave him the first for free.  In the second act, he was to return for the middle of the story. In the first act, she had proved her words were true. Everything had come to pass as she said. Those things proved good, true, and beautiful. So much so, the man had become worth 60 million dollars. For the second act, he was to return for some more story. In exchange, she and her son were to be given jobs. Good paying steady jobs in which they had an opportunity to create more joy for others. At least, that was a wish for KaythiaStar. For the third act, Kaythia was to receive a dividend. That way the team of creators could finish the story and then retire. That was the deal. The verbal contract made that day, 4-7-2013. (Cassidy's actual Deathday) Or at least, that's the one she thought she made.

Unless she forgot, of course. Which could be a real thing. Kaythia got really sick. So she had to go home. From 2015-2020, she was stuck. You wouldn't think 5 years isn't so long. But in Hell, time is slow. What was 5 felt like 20. But you know, there was a good side to that. She has plenty of time to get perspective. The dark side was that she learned who her family really was. It was more than troubling. Kaythia hurt herself getting out. 

When she came back, she was still in bad way. She had a lot of grieving to do. There was so much loss. And the idea of working towards act 2 got her through some truly rough spots. Her house she had returned too was rotting away. But she had hope. She was hope. Kaythia didn't wait around for that guy. She went out and found employment. She found a career. Kaythia didn't like it but it paid the bills. The insurance got her to a doctor. Health got better. Kaythia made her own hope.

So, with things improving, why did she feel awful? Kaythia Got a new boyfriend and he's great. They've been together for 3 years now. So, why does she feel lonely? Kaythia joined some groups, went out and socialized in person. She found a few new friends. Found a belonging with her co-workers. She even learned to lead from where she stood! So, why did she still feel disconnected, alone, and very exhausted?

Because she knew, she absolutely knew, that her divine purpose although started, was not complete. She was off the path. She had given away her map, in hopes that he would come back to help her. It's been 12 years. Kaythia should have heard from him by now. But she hasn't heard anything. Nothing.

Kaythia is really super sure she found him. The content was taken straight from the recording. Could it be that he didn't know her change from moon to star? Does it matter?

Well, she doesn't know. Kaythia is exhausted. The light was hope has become a burden. That's how you know to stop. When even the light of yourself is too energy and too heavy to bear, that when a person knows to stop. Drop the light. Walk into the darkness.

I tell others, "Don't be afraid."

Now, it's for me. "I'm not afraid." Because I know there's another light waiting for me in dark somewhere. But right now, its ok to be in the dark.

That dark has a name. I already found her. So, Goodbye Kaythiastar. It was great having you as a friend. I loved our time together. I loved you, so much. But you're tired and I understand. I'm sorry that you will never know if the promise was delivered. Hey, maybe we will meet again someday. Have a great rest. Let your glow fade. Its okay to sleep now. I think Loki might be waiting just beyond for you. He'll take you and watch out for you. Goodbye and good night.

Always.