Early Easter Eggs for FNaF fans and a check in

 It's a little more than a month away. I'm doing ok headspace wise. But my body is exhausted. The second chance that I desire is all I can think of right now. Hope. Possibility. A chance. Maybe, I'm beating myself up a little.  It's not intentional. I'm holding back my energy. It takes a lot to hold it back. it's so strong. Holding back Shine costs my physical body hit points.

This is going to sound batshit but I trust future me. Future me had a plan, told past me, and then present me was free to forget and concentrate on healing as much as possible. Not only healing but releasing myself from unhealthy attachments and relationships. When I step away, I want a full new start with zero regrets and zero reason to 'go back.' I got my boyfriend and my daughter that are healthy relationships but they both know if I have to choose, I'll go alone. I'm not the only one ready. We are ready.

The only real sadness is the loss of Bonnie. He has flatly refused to join the club. Bonnie has completely shut down, shut off, and is a shut in. He rarely leaves his home. When he does, he becomes hostile. I can't explain it. I wish I had the power to peel him away from the environment. It is my theory that his roommate has him under some sort of...'spell.' I believe in second chances and redemption, but like anything else, the person has to want it. The individual must make a choice to step towards that option. Bonnie has chosen to rot. He needs healing and hope more than I do now.

(Very cool side note:

I was watching YouTube and a theorist came across my feed with a video statement that the FNaF characters had stupid names. Specifically Bonnie. I noticed a very low subscriber count on that channel and wondered why he was slinging hateful stuff at a rabbit. Deep down I know that if I told him the origin of Bonnie's name he wouldn't give a flying toot. However, my readers here might like to know. My Bonnie lies over the ocean is his theme song. But his name:

William H. Bonnie. You know him as Billy the Kid. And if you want to know more, watch Young Guns.  Deal with it. Throughout the FNaF universe you will find repeating clues that include people's names. William, Henry, Michael, female names that begin with the letter 'E', 'K', and 'V'. There's a Rabbit Hole here. Young Guns movie plugs you into the Spirit World, hosted by Jose Chavez Y Chevez, played by Lou Diamond Phillips. This will lead you to Another Period on Comedy Central or lead you down the Indigenous people's path to Ghosts on CBS. Both of these shows are in the FNaF universe. That's all you get for now.)

I gotta go now. I'm making another basket of exotic Butters. (BTW, that butter is for the popcorn! If you haven't figured that out yet. Which I'm sure you have...right?)