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Bonney is back on board!

I don't know what it was that finally got him over the line, but he settled his own stuff that was holding him back. He isn't arguing with me and that's the most important part. Now, there is some debate about how much and far our influence reached. The Math, you know. Like Wonka was 65% and Girls und Panzers OVA 10%.

The team is missing one person, and the team cannot be complete without him. He has the keys and we have no way of contacting him. All three of us are trusting that he keeps the pinky promise. It all comes down to if he shows up in March.

Naka Con is already over, that means we are past the mid-month markers. Daily life has gotten difficult and heavy to plod through. It's 20 yards to the finish line and I have no energy to keep pace. All three of us are showing signs of extreme stress. He's been having bowel issues for months. She's been battling bowel, stress, and her teeth. I'm battling everything. (Seriously the list is too long for the blog) Getting back and forth to work is becoming a nightmare. Neither of us can't seem to do it. Time and distance are exaggerated, disrupted, and dilated. Perspective is skewed and warped. I think I know what this is and I think I know how to describe it. If I do so here, it gives too much away.

All three of us have prayed hard for this day to come. We finished the game and I think we can call it a fair success. We all have learned a good deal about ourselves and each other. Don't get me wrong, the 'reunion' is far from over. There are still steps to take. But I can see a little spark of hope right now. The light is strong enough to get me through a little time.

We don't say it out loud. But all of us are afraid. We are afraid that he won't keep his promise. He has that power. But why doubt? We have video and audio evidence that he wants to keep his promise. There are eggs laying everywhere for our little group specifically. So why worry? Well, it's not concrete until on paper. Furthermore, just because a person feels one way in 2012 doesn't mean they feel the same way in 2026 or anywhere in between. We don't know if the industry changed him or changed his mind. Does his family object? Perhaps this family changed his mind or convinced him to not keep his deal. Perhaps the consequences ruined his relationships, and he feels trapped in a situation he blames us for causing? The reasons could be endless in some measure or another. But the uncertainty that hangs over us in this moment is like iron magma. It's not where fun and fantasy meet life.

I'll check in next week